Have you ever thought that maybe the person that your going to be with for the rest of your life was right under your nose? Really have you ever thought that? I know I thought that. Hell, even today I’m sitting in church and I just felt Gods presence. Then I thought about a guy, a guy who has been in my life for a long time. This guy even asked me out once upon a time and I said, “no”. I got to say I saw him this week and all the memories started rushing back and we have such a great time together that it all felt right. Last night I was so hurt about the other guy that I never ever thought that maybe this guy could be the one. All’s I’m saying is maybe we all should think about the people around us and the people we care about. We never know who could be that perfect friend.
I know it’s late but I just have to get something off my chest. Tonight I found out the guy that I really like has a girlfriend. Here’s the thing I was getting ready to tell him that I liked him for a long time. Here I am scrolling down my twitter timeline not even looking for his tweets. I was bored so I’m checking my timeline and there it is. He says, “I would like to thank my girlfriend for being in my life.” To tell you the truth I’m taking this a whole lot better than I thought I would. I’m still shocked and my heart feels like It broke into a million pieces but I’m okay. I feel Like okay is a lot better than rock bottom so I’ll take it. I just needed to talk to someone because I do feel like I’m going to cry but I thought you guys were my best bet since it’s late. I’m going to be honest I really thought this day would never come and it did. I’ll be okay guys because guess what? There are more fish in this sea. Until next time.
You know the hardest thing in the world is for me is not feeling pretty and not feeling loved. I’ve been feeling that a great amount lately. I feel like nobody understands me or how I’m feeling. The words that comes to mind is alone and scared. I just want to say that these feelings are something that I would not wish upon anybody. I just want to say that I will make it no matter what happens and you will make it too. I will keep fighting and God as my witness I will never give up on myself. Taking your anger out on people will never solve the problem. Hurting yourself will never solve the problem. I’m trying to learn, and understand, and teach that believing in yourself will solve the problem. These feelings are scary believe me. That moment when you say, “Will anything go right.” “Can I ever do anything right.” That is how I feel right now like I can’t do anything right and nothing ever goes right. All’s I want to do is cry. I think the best medicine is to find something that makes you happy. Anything that makes you happy and thats where it starts. Believe in yourself and your dreams. BE FEARLESS!!!! And never EVER give up!!! Until next time dolls.